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ezziethenekolover

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Hi everyone,


It's been years since I've uploaded anything here... For that I do apologise.


I lost most of my inspiration or motivation as life took over, and I moved onto a different platform with my updated art that I now am drawing and uploading prints that can be bought. My store has the new name being ezzabonbon but it still doesn't help the block.


I've been struggling with energy for my whole life really, but the past few months has been unbearable. I'd have my canvas ready and tools prepped, but then lose all drive and put things back again. I'm struggling to find anything to draw today, so I'll try redrawing a past picture to show the changes to my drawings now.


I do hope and wish everyone is doing well as isolation had kicked in from the coronavirus situation and more that's happening around the world. I'm trying my best to do the best I can.


Take care all! I'll keep trying my best to do the best that I can.

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Hi all,

It's been some time since I was online and active, and I apologise for that. Since the last journal I had received my charger for my tablet but lost it temporarily and found it again on Easter. I've had craft projects that I was in the process of completing from last year that took priority and I had a costume I wanted to finish.

As the title says, I got to go to South Korea for two and a half weeks and that was amazing. The very first time overseas and my sister was the one who paid for me. Then when I came back I was working hard on completing a fursuit. (If you didn't know by now, I'm a furry. But That's fine. I didn't know it was a thing until 2012!)

I've also had a casual job with full time hours that changed into a part time job, which I resigned from as I wasn't being paid correctly. Alongside this I have been studying Community Services because I want a job that reflects my desire to help the community.

*Takes a deep breath*

I then have also gone to Confurgence (Which I was told was one of the biggest conventions for furs in the Southern Hemisphere) and got to meet a few awesome Youtubers and non Youtubers (Such as Telephone, Blu Dragon, Uncle Kage and more talented individuals). I got to dance in my fursuit in front of a crowd, alongside interacting with other like minded people. I got to draw sketches of the other suiters and simply stay away from home for a weekend.

Then when I did eventually get back home, I had to go back into the way home life was like before I even left.

And even more recently now I have started an online drawing course (Which is where the eye sketch that I recently uploaded came from).

I had full intentions on getting back to you all on a frequent basis, but I'm struggling to on top of everything else. Now I'm here playing catchup.

And and AND!!!
I'll be going to the Markiplier tour as he is coming to Melbourne (Near where I live) in November and I have another day where I'll be going to see Dan and Phil with my friends.

My year's been going off with a bang and boy has it been so much fun so far. :3

I hope you are all having a good year too.

Until next time.

Bye~
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Hi guys,

As the title suggests, my Wacom Intuos Pro tablet has now decided to kick the dirt. I can use it wirelessly (thank God) but I have no way of charing it as of yet. I've ordered a charger to charge the battery separately, but until it arrives I can't do much.

I'll get around to replying to people's comments, but I'm a bit busy today so that might have to wait.

My tablet's port has decided it doesn't want any cable to work with the computer. But until I get the charger that I ordered, my activity art wise might be a bit... hindered.

Until then, I hope everyone is having a good day.
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Well here for me it's no longer Valentine's Day...

But I still wanted to wish everyone a happy Valentine's Day! :D

I didn't really have a Valentine... so I chose to be my own. XP And it worked out pretty well.

I have some exciting news to share with you guys though. :P

Today I just received my very first commission! :w00t: I'm so excited but nervous for it. :P I can't say much now since I'm not sure if I need to keep it private between me and the other party until the commission is completed. All I can say is the other party is an author and I know them IRL.

Still very exciting. :3

My absence this time has been due to me changing my priorities as I'm trying to get my life in order. Before being asked for this commission project, I have so many art/ crafts projects that I started but never finished. Mainly things to sew or knit, crochet, loom knit, etc.

On top of this, I have a challenge of learning two new songs each fortnight for either my guitar or ukulele. Plus the owner at the pub I play at has offered me a waitressing job... So I've been working on getting my qualifications to take up the job.

And even further is my health goals... Oh boy my health goals. XD

I saw my doctor a week or so ago... and discovered I'm supposed to be roughly 75Kgs for my height... now, I'll be honest with you guys. I'm no way near that weight value. I am what many would call overweight or obese, depending on what people think. I've struggled with my weight and self esteem as a result. One reason why I loved this website was because no one would see me IRL, so I felt safe knowing I wouldn't be judged due to my excess weight.

Moving on, I made a deal with my mum. I asked her that if I lost 10Kgs in 1.5 months, that I could buy Pokemon Sun. Yes, yes, I'm an adult and really my mum's approval shouldn't be the way I live my life... However, I couldn't just buy "another game" as I have lots of games already... I had to earn it, and boy have I been working for it.

Twice a week I'd attend Taewkondo classes with my sister, each night I'd take my puppy out for a walk, I'd then spend 30 minutes after the walk to do some wii fit excersizes. Every morning for breakfast would be Avacado on toast, and every now and then I'd treat myself to a cup of green tea.

This is all the things I've been doing to lose weight. Naturally it has been working. I've been monitoring how much I eat and eating slower. I'd have the daily task of fresh water for my puppy, feeding her in the morning and cleaning up whatever damage has been left in the backyard, plus I need to play with her more during the day.

Recently my arms, legs, back and toes (sometimes) would hurt and ache, but I push past it when walking my puppy because she likes and needs to run sometimes. I get extremely sore when sitting for long periods of time, so I have to get up and move. My hopes is that when I lose more, it'll be easier on my back, when that happens, hopefully my back pain will lesson until it no longer exists.

I started off this journey at 106.4Kgs and in just about a week, I have gone down to 104.9Kgs. My initial goal is to reach 90.4Kgs. Then I'll aim to lose another 10Kgs until I am at a healthier weight then where I am.

Sorry for the extra personal entry at the end. As I said, I've been picked on for my weight online before, and my self esteem took a pretty big toll as a result. But my repairing right now involves me actively trying to change as well as sharing how everything is going. It's a significant part of my life schedule and as I said, I've been redefining my priorities. My health right now comes first, my puppy is second (My cat also is in the second ranking priority), and my art things are third.

Either way, Wishing you all the best today, it's 3:46am where I live right now and I need to sleep before I become a potato. :P

I'm sorry to those who's birthdays I have missed... Hope you guys had a wonderful birthday and I'll see you all another day. :)
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Hi guys,

So I know I have been trying to be more active on this website. And I have to a point...

Well recently I adopted a new puppy. She's 8 months old and her previous owner kept her to a chain for her whole life pretty much. But now I have her and I love her to pieces. She's a cute goofball who makes lots of behavioural mistakes because she hadn't been taught or really interacted with by her previous owner.

So I've been spending quite a decent amount of time with her. To play, take her for a walk, train her, feed her, give her fresh water and overall trying to take care of her. She has a sunburnt nose that I have to keep applying sunscreen or zinc sunscreen to and I have to wipe her eyes because they get crusty and gross.

So I've been spending most of my day really in her company. Outside of this, I am required by law to apply for 20 jobs a month. (Not really too bad, it works out to a job every day (Mon-Fri) So I can't complain) To top this off, I play at a pub outside of my hometown every fortnight with the goal of learning a new song a week.

Most of my time has been kinda absorbed until I can better organise my time. I'll get around to responding to messages soon. (319 art, 1,599 watcher and 21 feedback messages so far) But since it's 3:20am I really should go to bed. @-@

I've felt real bad that I couldn't upload frequently and recently. I've been struggling with some thoughts over some friends irl who aren't on here too... But I'm not going to go into detail about that.

My back has been slowly getting better, as long as I don't sit for too long, sleep with a pillow below my back and not sit on the floor. Bending and getting up is generally the most painful. I will also start my art streaming once my sister goes back to uni. I just have to wait.

To top everything off. I got to go to Rosebud, which is a town just outside of Melbourne and stay there for a few days. I got sunburnt and am now living the consequences of painful, itchy, dry skin. DX It was my own fault for not wearing sunscreen... I didn't think clearly that day.

AAaaanyway... that is just about it for my updates...

I have a question I want to ask?
What is your favourite colour?
Mine's Blue. :)

Why am I asking? Well... I want to see about asking a question at the end of all my journals. With the hope that some of you guys will reply. And I'm curious... what's your favourite colour? :3

Have a good one!
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