Hi guys,

So I marked this one mature, simply because of the content discussed. It does make mention to self harm, bullying, depression.

I just wanted to be safe in putting this there... so if you wish to read this free verse poem, then by all means feel free to read. But just keep in mind this is a warning right here.

Anyways, in short. I wrote this poem on my phone as I was heading towards my volunteering work one day last year. It's all based on a thought that hit me as I woke up from sleep one morning, and I just had to get those thoughts out to a physical means.

In his poem I do talk about my own personal experience... I have struggled with depression, loneliness, sadness, contemplation of suicide and self harm. All sensitive topics and really I struggle every now and then... But I've been better now.

I do slip every now and then. But I never claim myself depressed if I was sad for a day or more...

No, for me depression is more like, not just sad. Yes, sadness is part of it... But I have lost complete interest in anything that used to entertain me. I struggle to get out of bed and I constantly think about walking out into traffic. But I know I'd never do it. I still internally bully myself and just put it down to personality.

So... when this happens, only then I know I've slipped into that mindset again.

I'm always open to talk to those who have struggled with the similar struggles that I've gone through. I know I couldn't have gotten through without the support I've received.

Everyone is fighting their own battle... and it's sad when they feel no one can be there for them. Just know. You can have someone here to talk to for even if it's to rant because you had a bad day.

You don't need to blurt out personal details, but I'm always up for chatting. Because I know how much talking can help. But if it's pretty bad, please. Try calling an anonymous help line. I'm sure someone on there could have a chat with you.

Everyone needs that one person to talk to and listen to. To vent/rant to and hopefully it'll make you feel better. If not, don't lose hope. There's someone out there who would be more then happy to help.

Sorry for the long description. ^-^; But it was kinda important. This sort of stuff I usually keep to myself, but I decided to speak out through the poem.

If you like this poem, please let me know. If you didn't, I apologise. If you don't agree, please understand this was my perspective over it all, I only drew from my own experiences...

Stay safe guys. There's always at least someone you can talk to who cares.