Christmas countdown and other stuff

Hi guys, so first off I wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

It's approaching midnight for where I am which means my Christmas has come to a close and man have these days gone bye faster then I could count them.

If you didn't quite understand the Christmas Countdown, it was meant to be a daily thing for me to log on and post up a certain number of followers/watchers depending on the day. Sadly I failed my goal and am rather disappointed in myself really. I'd been so focused on my volunteering and keeping an eye out for presents for my niece and nephew (who are really the only children in my family and it was really important that they got something, especially since my nephew was celebrating his first Christmas as a 1yo. He was only 1 month old when Christmas came last year.

On top of this I've been experiencing horrible back pain that at times has been preventing me from moving as it ceases up. Initially I thought it was because I slept weirdly one night and expected the pain to leave within the week. Well that week soon became 2 then 3 then a month and gradually getting worse. I could barely get up off the ground without pain or assistance...

So it's been a bother. I went to the Chiropractor and he helped put my back back to where it needed to be, but that pain was really only relieved for 1 to 2 days. On the 2nd day I had volunteering and it gradually got worse throughout the day. Nowadays I can barely sit for 10-20 mins before my back feels like it ceases up and it hurts incredibly to move.

I think m back pain has possibly been a reason why I haven't been online much. And I'm deeply sorry for this guys. If I had any control over my back pain, I'd take it... really. It feels worse then when I went to the Chiro and this is probably 1 week since I visited him. Really, this pain has caused more stress and breakdowns then I could ever want.

Plus I found out I suffer terribly from loneliness, and discovered you don't have to be alone to feel lonely. I felt a little at ease since in my mind it didn't make sense. I was with my family and friends, yet felt lonely. And that feeling worsened when my friends (Most of them don't live locally, or they live locally for most of the year but return to their homes when their study periods are over) and it's been almost unbearable at times.

But I'm managing it. The back pain is really keeping my mind off of how lonely I feel.

Erhem! Anyways... back to the topic. I'm sorry that I couldn't complete my countdown. There are way too many good artists out there and it's really difficult for me to choose from my watchers. Some accounts have deactivated, some have moved, and some are inactive which makes it challenging. I might be able to do a massive remaining countdown after this journal so that I get my days done, however I also have art I want to work on too and I'm prepared to be up beyond midnight doing so.

If I don't get around to the remaining countdown then I apologise, I might just do the usernames and encourage everyone to check out the galleries of those followers. I might do that and edit the journal another day to add two art pieces to showcase.

Either way, I want to do something that'll make me and everyone happy.

I also understand not everyone celebrates this time of year, and that's cool. Some don't like the day because of bad memories, others might be because of beliefs. (Kinda like how I believe in God and Jesus, etc. But you won't see me really preaching about them. Not that I don't like to, just I'm too shy to talk about the things I believe in. Even mentioning it now is me being brave. )

So I ask we respect everyone. Whether you celebrate it or not. I'll say this:
Happy Holidays and I wish you the best for the New Year!

Ok, I'm tired, it's midnight now and I have some work to do.